A Leap of Faith

I'm officially going off the diet.  I've, of course, been absolutely perfectly keeping my calories at 1300 and my macros at 40p, 40f, 20 carbs.

I have lost no weight, actually just bouncing up and down between 161.5 and 163.  I have seen no gains in my workouts.

Now I can do this for a few weeks, months, years, just to be sure that my body has time to acclimate, but I've pretty much given this whole, "eat less," thing a try for 30 years and it hasn't taken yet.  I can eat less than anyone, no cheating, no problem and it's not helped me in the slightest.  It seems to work great for a few days and then I have to eat less.  And when I'm down to 300 calories a day and 1.5 hours at the gym, the only way to lose more is to stop eating entirely for a few days.  Been there, done that.  If that worked, why am I not muscular and thin?  I work out enough and eat with enough care.  

Leap of faith.
I did actually increase my calories by 200 last week one day and promptly gained 2 pounds.  I also did not see huge workout gains.  It can go both ways, can't it?  I'm just choosing to listen to the world...but isn't this what went wrong in the first place?  They said eat less, I did. Now they say to eat more, should I?  They were wrong the first time.  I think I have to try this and maybe find truth along the way.  I don't want to get fat but what I am doing is not working.  Time to try something else.  That's logical, isn't it?

Also, I've been having terrible head-rushes the last couple of days.  I usually get these when I'm losing weight but there's been no weight loss.  

Body Composition

Also, most bodybuilders are dumb.  How is it that THEY can figure out how to build muscle but I can't?  It canNOT be that they are all genetically gifted and this just falls into their lap.  No.  That's impossible.  That's another reason I'm going to eat more.  

I'm going to do this.  

I'm going to eat more.  I don't know how since there's so much that I can't eat, but I have to...somehow...eat more.
 

 Here's a couple of my meals.  6oz of shrimp, mushrooms, guacamole. 6oz of salmon and green beans.  And somehow I have to get more food on those plates and I don't know how.