Monday, April 25, 2016

8 Weeks Old and Done

So, here are their, "graduation photos."




They get fixed this week and then off for adoption.

Yesterday the org called with an emergency!  Newborn kittens and a momma needed a home quickly! 6 hours after we said we'd take them, they got back to us and said it'll probably be a couple of days.

Sigh.

And will I get attitude when I tell them to capstar the lot of them before I take them into my home?  Yep.  

 

Friday, April 1, 2016

Got Kittens!

Yeah, the org hates us because we insist that the animals are treated for fleas before they are allowed in our home (with out pets).  We're high maintenance, apparently. And then with our outlandish demands that the kittens are all fixed while they're still kittens and not at 3 or 4 months old, yeah, we're terrible.

So kitten season and we got a batch anyway.  And they have ear mites so hopefully I can get SOMEONE to do SOMETHING about that.  Poor things.



Working on getting more pics, I'm posting movies over on Twitter, it's so tedious to do that here so...yeah, you lose, LOL



So, my deadlifts are up.  125.  Not the first time I've lifted this but I'm going back up the ol ladder.  Overhead press is up to 20lb dumbbells so not great but I'm pushing thru this plateau.  Still force feeding myself.  Got sick twice, lifted anyway.  Both of us got sick, I blame him for bringing something from work then immediately after, got sick again.  Still lifted.  Added cardio.  LIGHT cardio!  Just 20 minutes of HIT!  And sometimes boxing the heavy bag.  It's good!  It's all good!  Getting too hot to do that outside tho, jeeeeeeeeez louise it's going to be a long hot summer! 

Example: I got up at 8 (way too early) and fed my 4 cats, medicated all (everyone is allergic and Ceilidh is neurotic so pills, anti-biotics, and eye drops, a little for everyone) went upstairs and fed the fosters, cleaned litter boxes and sweat was pouring off me, my jam-jams were soaked and had to be tossed in the laundry.  8am.  In March.  Fuuuuuuuuuuuck!

Cat allergies-2 have been on prescription food, it doesn't do anything.  Got 2 that are all red gummed and had dentals and 2 rounds of antibiotics now, I'm going to skip all the months of trying new things like the vet wants, even tho she admits that the other things rarely work, and when we go in in a week for a check up, if it's still bad, I'm opting for pulling the teeth.  It doesn't effect the cat whatsoever and Mei Mei is a snowshoe, she can't lose any weight.  She's down to 7 from her normal 8.5.  Can't have it.  Her teeth hurt?  Get rid of them, let her have a pain-free little life.  Fuzzywinkle doesn't slow down eating for anyone.  If it was just him, I'd say leave it.  It just makes his breath bad and he couldn't care less but if one is going in, let's get it over with. 
Calia has itched her whole life, then last year she got a nose bump that kept growing and then in November her toes swelled up and she got a bump behind her ear.  Vet says it's all allergies.  Steroid shot and she's nearly normal!  Ceilidh, well, she's allergic to...I don't know.  Air?  Liquid squirts, vomiting her whole life.  No food seems to work for long.  She'll be getting another steroid shot in a couple of weeks.  It seemed to help some.  The special food and the cat probiotics sure didn't make any difference once the shot wore off. 

Personally, I think all the commercial cat food is toxic but mine will NOT eat people food and raw food is not acceptable to my divas.  Tried it.  They didn't eat for 3 days.  I gave in. Mei Mei can't lose any weight, remember?  Won't eat chicken, tuna, salmon, steak.  At least the rabbit eats his hay cookies!  Rabbit and the fosters are the healthiest animals I have in the house!  Sheeeeeeeeesh!


Monday, March 7, 2016

Night Sweats

I've upped my calories yet again.  All the online calculators come up with drastically different numbers and I was using a low one.  Many others have me in the 2000 to 2200s a day.  Ok, now I'm up to 2000.
More or less.
I have bags of nuts all over the house to help me hit those numbers and macros.  Day 3 and I'm close, really close.  I have 191 calories yet today.  Macadamias, here I come!

One of the reasons I think I was too low at 1760 is because I am still freezing cold all the time.  Another sure sign is last night, man I had the night sweats all night.  If you add 300 more calories in a day, do you sweat all night? 
Besides, I'm not lifting weights for grins.  If I want to see development, I need to eat more. 

Friday, March 4, 2016

Hitting All PRs Today!

I've got my allergies to pollen and my cat going full blast (my truck it yellow with pollen right now) and I'm tired and just physically exhausted.  I know it's going to be bad when I come upstairs and I'm winded.
I'M WINDED GOING UP A FLIGHT OF STAIRS--that's how tired I am!
Boy, I'm going to have a great workout today, huh?

Somehow, I had all PRs (personal records) on everything!  EVERYTHING!

Went up on squats.  1 extra set, up 5 lbs (goblet squats)
Went up on military press.  Got 5 reps instead of 4
Went up on rows, graduated from dumbbells to barbell.

Checked weight this morning and I'm up 7 pounds.  I'll weigh-in again in a month.  Hope for the best.  Hey, maybe I just packed on 7lbs of invisible muscle?  LOL

Still eating my tdee, mostly.  I was 79 calories short last night.  I'll do better today.  I will! I hope.  Everyone says it's impossible to gain weight eating your tdee.  Everyone says it's water.  My macros are in line, there's nothing else I can do about it.  Up or down, I've given my body to the internet, I can't focus on the scale.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

1 Month Of Weight Lifting And...

No change whatsoever.

It's POSSIBLE that I'm not eating enough, that's the old stand-by answer, but I physically can't eat any more at all.  I wake up and eat a large volume of food, do that ever 3 hours, go to bed bloated and gassy and stuffed.  It interfers with my sleep, last night I woke up thinking I had to puke, burped, tried to lay on my stomach to keep it safe, and went back to sleep.

My workouts are intense enough.  I am always pushing for more reps, sets, or weight.  Friday I hit a wall of exhaustion.  It wasn't a sleepy-tired, it was muscle exhaustion.  Luckily, I take weekends off, but I was just wiped. 

So my standard answer why I never see any changes and why bodybuilding doesn't work for me is that I must be too fat to see the muscle.  That's the internet stand-by answer as well.  It's like the religious fall back of, "you didn't pray hard enough," or, "you weren't worthy enough."  Sure.  It's totally because I'm too fat. 
Which actually, I look even worse.  My body is just lumpy with blubber right now.  I'm eating far too much and I'm barely getting over 1700 calories a day. 

Also, I've reached my limit on military press.  15lb dumbbells is it.  WAS it.  I could lift them last week, this week I can't get them up at all.  And this is how my weight lifting stalls and ends.  I get to a certain point and can't lift any more weight.  I do this for a few weeks and then I give up and do something else. 

I'll go out for lunch today, easy way to get more calories because I don't know of a single restaurant in a 1500 mile radius that actually cooks food.  They all just open boxes and heat in a microwave and serve. Local Mom & Pop Greek restaurant raves about her gyro meat supplier.  She brags how they don't even have to cook anything.  Like this is something to be proud of.  Makes Burger King look healthy, doesn't it?  At least they grill their mystery meat.  Can't decide which shitty restaurant to go to, which is what keeps me from going, LOL Chili's (don't get the steak fajitas, the meat quality is all gristle and fat.  Last time I had it, I sent it back.  It was inedible.)?  Rock & Brew has boring burgers, and really, sorry Gene, a really sad menu.  Bah, I'll go somewhere, I guess.  It's all bad, it doesn't matter.

End of month 1.  No progress.

Friday, February 26, 2016

I Broke a Nail

I put the scale away because NO.

I'm eating 1760 calories a day, macros are 40p, 40f, 20c and I broke a nail, split it right down the middle trying to get my rings off to work out.
Sheesh! I am so swollen with water and fat.  Ok, I'm suppose to believe that it's not fat, it's all water.  Uh huh.  Sure, I'll play along.  That's why I put the scale away.

Measurements-the same as they've always been since high school.  Yippee.  I'm not going to bother with measuring again, it never changes.  Needless to say, clothes fit a little more snug but pretty much exactly the same as always.  And yes, my jeans are the same ones from high school.  Back when they made them from real denim instead of thin cotton.  Lasts forever, which is why they aren't making them to last anymore.  Job security.  Now that's it's shorts and t-shirt weather again, who needs jeans anyway?

So.  Any muscle?  Nope.  I've gone up 20 pounds in deadlifts but honestly, legs can lift much more than they tell me.  I'm probably not even lifting my max weight, just my too afraid to lift more weight.  Which is a paltry...105lbs. 
I am such a cream puff.

Monday, February 22, 2016

A Leap of Faith

I'm officially going off the diet.  I've, of course, been absolutely perfectly keeping my calories at 1300 and my macros at 40p, 40f, 20 carbs.

I have lost no weight, actually just bouncing up and down between 161.5 and 163.  I have seen no gains in my workouts.

Now I can do this for a few weeks, months, years, just to be sure that my body has time to acclimate, but I've pretty much given this whole, "eat less," thing a try for 30 years and it hasn't taken yet.  I can eat less than anyone, no cheating, no problem and it's not helped me in the slightest.  It seems to work great for a few days and then I have to eat less.  And when I'm down to 300 calories a day and 1.5 hours at the gym, the only way to lose more is to stop eating entirely for a few days.  Been there, done that.  If that worked, why am I not muscular and thin?  I work out enough and eat with enough care.  

Leap of faith.
I did actually increase my calories by 200 last week one day and promptly gained 2 pounds.  I also did not see huge workout gains.  It can go both ways, can't it?  I'm just choosing to listen to the world...but isn't this what went wrong in the first place?  They said eat less, I did. Now they say to eat more, should I?  They were wrong the first time.  I think I have to try this and maybe find truth along the way.  I don't want to get fat but what I am doing is not working.  Time to try something else.  That's logical, isn't it?

Also, I've been having terrible head-rushes the last couple of days.  I usually get these when I'm losing weight but there's been no weight loss.  

Body Composition
Also, most bodybuilders are dumb.  How is it that THEY can figure out how to build muscle but I can't?  It canNOT be that they are all genetically gifted and this just falls into their lap.  No.  That's impossible.  That's another reason I'm going to eat more.  
I'm going to do this.  
I'm going to eat more.  I don't know how since there's so much that I can't eat, but I have to...somehow...eat more.
 

 Here's a couple of my meals.  6oz of shrimp, mushrooms, guacamole. 6oz of salmon and green beans.  And somehow I have to get more food on those plates and I don't know how.