Monday, March 7, 2016

Night Sweats

I've upped my calories yet again.  All the online calculators come up with drastically different numbers and I was using a low one.  Many others have me in the 2000 to 2200s a day.  Ok, now I'm up to 2000.
More or less.
I have bags of nuts all over the house to help me hit those numbers and macros.  Day 3 and I'm close, really close.  I have 191 calories yet today.  Macadamias, here I come!

One of the reasons I think I was too low at 1760 is because I am still freezing cold all the time.  Another sure sign is last night, man I had the night sweats all night.  If you add 300 more calories in a day, do you sweat all night? 
Besides, I'm not lifting weights for grins.  If I want to see development, I need to eat more. 

Friday, March 4, 2016

Hitting All PRs Today!

I've got my allergies to pollen and my cat going full blast (my truck it yellow with pollen right now) and I'm tired and just physically exhausted.  I know it's going to be bad when I come upstairs and I'm winded.
I'M WINDED GOING UP A FLIGHT OF STAIRS--that's how tired I am!
Boy, I'm going to have a great workout today, huh?

Somehow, I had all PRs (personal records) on everything!  EVERYTHING!

Went up on squats.  1 extra set, up 5 lbs (goblet squats)
Went up on military press.  Got 5 reps instead of 4
Went up on rows, graduated from dumbbells to barbell.

Checked weight this morning and I'm up 7 pounds.  I'll weigh-in again in a month.  Hope for the best.  Hey, maybe I just packed on 7lbs of invisible muscle?  LOL

Still eating my tdee, mostly.  I was 79 calories short last night.  I'll do better today.  I will! I hope.  Everyone says it's impossible to gain weight eating your tdee.  Everyone says it's water.  My macros are in line, there's nothing else I can do about it.  Up or down, I've given my body to the internet, I can't focus on the scale.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

1 Month Of Weight Lifting And...

No change whatsoever.

It's POSSIBLE that I'm not eating enough, that's the old stand-by answer, but I physically can't eat any more at all.  I wake up and eat a large volume of food, do that ever 3 hours, go to bed bloated and gassy and stuffed.  It interfers with my sleep, last night I woke up thinking I had to puke, burped, tried to lay on my stomach to keep it safe, and went back to sleep.

My workouts are intense enough.  I am always pushing for more reps, sets, or weight.  Friday I hit a wall of exhaustion.  It wasn't a sleepy-tired, it was muscle exhaustion.  Luckily, I take weekends off, but I was just wiped. 

So my standard answer why I never see any changes and why bodybuilding doesn't work for me is that I must be too fat to see the muscle.  That's the internet stand-by answer as well.  It's like the religious fall back of, "you didn't pray hard enough," or, "you weren't worthy enough."  Sure.  It's totally because I'm too fat. 
Which actually, I look even worse.  My body is just lumpy with blubber right now.  I'm eating far too much and I'm barely getting over 1700 calories a day. 

Also, I've reached my limit on military press.  15lb dumbbells is it.  WAS it.  I could lift them last week, this week I can't get them up at all.  And this is how my weight lifting stalls and ends.  I get to a certain point and can't lift any more weight.  I do this for a few weeks and then I give up and do something else. 

I'll go out for lunch today, easy way to get more calories because I don't know of a single restaurant in a 1500 mile radius that actually cooks food.  They all just open boxes and heat in a microwave and serve. Local Mom & Pop Greek restaurant raves about her gyro meat supplier.  She brags how they don't even have to cook anything.  Like this is something to be proud of.  Makes Burger King look healthy, doesn't it?  At least they grill their mystery meat.  Can't decide which shitty restaurant to go to, which is what keeps me from going, LOL Chili's (don't get the steak fajitas, the meat quality is all gristle and fat.  Last time I had it, I sent it back.  It was inedible.)?  Rock & Brew has boring burgers, and really, sorry Gene, a really sad menu.  Bah, I'll go somewhere, I guess.  It's all bad, it doesn't matter.

End of month 1.  No progress.